Sometimes I think that I have to hold everything together, that I am the glue of my own life. Glue is such a permanent, unchanging thing, however, and I definitely don't want to be that. I want to be moldable, bendable, and flexible...I don't want life to break me. Yet the thing I'm learning the most right now is that I have a mission in life and I cannot let my fears of everything falling apart if I let go get in the way of my mission. God has a huge, amazing, fulfilling, wonderful, scary, exciting plan for me and my husband, and if I follow His plan, I will be blessed beyond my wildest dreams. I'm terrified, but I'm ready. I'm tired of hiding, of living my life for somebody else. I want to live my life the way God designed it. I'm seeing glimpses of this ride we're about to embark on, and my heart is quivering with excitement and expectancy.
As of right now, I am tired and I'm ready for sweet, peaceful slumber. I'm ready to rest in His arms, knowing that He has me prepared for tomorrow. Sweet Jesus, thank you!
Mariah
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