Marriage

Marriage is hard...oh, so hard!

Lord, please lead me in the right direction. I don't want to give up. Give me the strength to do the right thing.

Marriage is still hard :(

What If There's No Easy Way?

Sometimes choosing to do the right thing hurts people. You can never make everyone happy, and that's what sucks about living. Someone is going to get hurt. Yet, if it is the right thing to do, God will make it all work out for the good. That's the only thing that keeps me going on this road I've chosen to travel. Someday the landscape is going to be beautiful, even though right now it's dry, desert lands as far as I can see.

My husband really is an amazing man, as restless and unmotivated as he is. Despite everything, he has been very gentle and loving towards me, helping me through it all. I pray that Mike joining the Army will not cause too my strife among my family. Pray with me--it's the best thing you can do!

As for now, there are a few chores that need to be finished up before I get some sleep. Tomorrow I get to talk to my new boss about my schedule!

Mariah

God Can Handle It

Sometimes I think that I have to hold everything together, that I am the glue of my own life. Glue is such a permanent, unchanging thing, however, and I definitely don't want to be that. I want to be moldable, bendable, and flexible...I don't want life to break me. Yet the thing I'm learning the most right now is that I have a mission in life and I cannot let my fears of everything falling apart if I let go get in the way of my mission. God has a huge, amazing, fulfilling, wonderful, scary, exciting plan for me and my husband, and if I follow His plan, I will be blessed beyond my wildest dreams. I'm terrified, but I'm ready. I'm tired of hiding, of living my life for somebody else. I want to live my life the way God designed it. I'm seeing glimpses of this ride we're about to embark on, and my heart is quivering with excitement and expectancy.

As of right now, I am tired and I'm ready for sweet, peaceful slumber. I'm ready to rest in His arms, knowing that He has me prepared for tomorrow. Sweet Jesus, thank you!

Mariah

It's been too long!

Blogging is apparently not my thing. It's been about 3 months since my last update, in which case I have a lot to tell!

Mike and I moved into a two bedroom apartment a mile or so north of our first apartment. It's nice to have the extra room as an office and to have a washer and dryer INSIDE our apartment. Now I don't have to pay 2 dollars for a small load of laundry to be cleaned and dried!

In just a couple weeks I will be starting my second semester in nursing school--med/surge. I'm pretty stoked about it and I hope it's stoked about me, too! I bought a new laptop for school (which arrived today), which is the same laptop I'm typing on right now :D

My friend Brittany from Chicago came to visit for a few days last month and I miss her terribly! I hope she enjoyed her time here :D

Anywho, it's time to vacuum and do some laundry, so I should let you go...

Mariah

Halfway Done

The first day of finals is over...two finals down, two to go! And tomorrow after finals we're going to P.F. Chang's for dinner! I'm excited--their chicken lettuce wraps are AMAZING. No joke.

Anywho, I'm feeling a bit unmotivated and I'm ready to do something new, like clean the apartment and go visit my grandma, but I must push on for just ONE more day. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can....

....Mariah

Taco soup

I didn't know a better title for this blog, so that's what it is :) I'm making taco soup and waiting for my sister-in-law and her husband and daughter to come over for dinner. Mike's playing WOW (World Of Warcraft), his favorite "hobby".

Finals...oh. the. joy.

I'm ready for a few months off. I'm ready to not have anything I NEED to do. I'm ready to come home and relax. I'm ready to play some games and watch a movie with my husband. I'm ready to visit with some friends. I miss my friends. I'm so thankful for them!

Speaking of being thankful, I am thankful for so many things. I'm thankful for this apartment we live in, for the nice weather, and for this weekend. I'm thankful for my husband. I'm thankful for my parents and my brother. I'm thankful for my deteriorating great-grandma, and I'm thankful that she's so close to us now. I'm thankful for nursing school. And I'm thankful for my Jesus who has taught me so much in these past 10 months of being married. I've learned and grown so much! I have so much hope for our future and I'm incredibly excited to see what God has in store for us.

That said, I think I hear my sister and her family outside. More to come!

Mariah